When you dare to look at yourself from the perspective of not a mirror, you may find yourself seeing for the first time.
We live in a world of judgment and opinion. Even if we do not pay attention to what someone says about us, our subconscious records everything and buys as "its own". We often judge ourselves, the most painful and enduring. We see ourselves in a curved mirror, we have not been taught to take compliments, we have grown up in a culture where a girl must look modest, not challenging, it is best to have her head down and always folded down and when someone looks, to become invisible. The boy, on the other hand, must be strong, muscular, help his mother and sit quietly as the elders say. The result of this, Everything that deviates from the "standard" is in our opinion inappropriate, we grow up building stories about ourselves that often miss the truth, let's blush when someone tells us a compliment or even better, immediately deny or start their thought process, leading towards suspicion and conspiracy theories because it's impossible for someone to notice something beautiful in me so they probably want something – you know it?
"But if I look like her, this one has a body, I'm ashamed of myself." Do you know such thoughts? Most people I know, even if they fully accept themselves today, feel the emotions that accompany these thoughts in the body. How much power they have and how badly they hurt our lives and how much time and work it takes to clear the hard disk of memory from their permanent records.
But there are places and spaces where magic happens. Where we put ourselves often out of curiosity, or just feel that something closer to the unidentified pulls us and allows us to be there. Such space is the Sea of Angels. There your life can take on another dimension, that's where you can find YOURSELF.
It doesn't matter who you are or what you come with. Everybody's equal there. There you become energy, not matter. This magical place is filled with security and readiness for your nakedness. You stand on the shore and the impossible becomes possible. You walk into water, often colder than you might think, free your body, start to have contact with it, often for the first time in your life you feel it for real! The energy of the rising sun strengthens you and you quickly leave behind all the masks and suits so meticulously woven over the years. In this secure place surrounded by people standing next to you with an open heart, often wrapping your wing, adding courage, allowing yourself to be yourself, to tears, to be immersed in the abyss of thoughtlessness. You're in your power, you're in your energy, and you feel it as real as ever.
And then there's something that can never be planned. You don't play any part in your sleep deprivation, YOU'RE JUST YOURSELF. There are no scenarios in the Sea of Angels, there are things happening, there is energy flowing, there is magic happening every morning, for everyone in a different dimension, but unanimously everyone says MAGIA...
You're going home, and you're waiting for Joanna's photo report. You look at pictures of beautiful, real people filled with your energy and think "which ones are mine?" and write to Joanna that you can't find yourself...
We don't recognize each other in this beauty, we don't see our body features, we don't find the characters, because every day we look at each other in matrix glasses that obscure the truth, the truth about ourselves.
Magic happens on the other side of the lens. Because when you stand in your power, in your energy, you touch yourself most often for the first time in your life. And you look in rapture and you get moved to tears and you see YOURSELF in your nakedness, in your exposure, and you know that you can fall in love with yourself because you're a CUDEM, and you give yourself the right to be attracted to you.
That's my experience of my first entrances and first looks with Joanna's lens. I couldn't believe how different I saw myself. Today I know that every day the exact same story can be written by most people who enter the Sea of Angels who come to immerse themselves for once and enter this space into their power and find themselves in it.
Is worth it to myself
Maja Lesińska
Photographs: Joanna S-Grzybowska | Photography Love
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